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| TT___TT WAAAAH!!! .:: sniffles::. today I am sad. Very sad and angry, for two reasons which I caused myself; and sorta for a third, bieng that I should have known better than to be stupid enough to do either of these thing. God I am such an idiot sometimes. >___< grrrr. I wanna go bang my head against a hard metal wall somewhere....well, maybe after I finish typing what's up.
I got in a big fight with my brother this morning. I know this doesn't sound like anything to anyone, but if anyone knows me and my brother it's a huge deal. We're only half siblings and we don't live together and we're really close in age ( both sophomores ), so we're really more like just really good friends. U___U But we NEVER fight, and this morning I finally lost it and yelled at him, and he got mad and yelled at me for making a scene...and then later I couldn't find him and apologize...and the even worse thing is I"M NOT SURE IF I WANT TO. It really is his fault and I'm still angry at him for bieng an inconsiderate meanie. I always let him do whatever he wants and walk all over me, I guess I'm just getting tired of it....
This is why I'm mad in the first place. ^__^;; you guys will think it's stupid, but I guess I'm a child at heart and it's really torn me up.
I have this mp3 player you see. It's a really nice one, called a zune, and it's got all my music aranged on it with pictures and I take REALLY good care of it. It's like my baby <3. Anyways, on friday Tony ( my brother ) practically begged me if he could borrow it because he had wrestling practice for like 5 hours and had forgotten his CD player....I said no like 5 times but he said I was bieng selfish and I really was so I decided I could live without it over the weekend and made him promise he would give it back..he said it was no problem but come today he just smiled and said 'oops I forgot it' and then went on to say it was kinda useless anyways because all my music sucked. For a second I wanted to cry because I was already really tired and had to work out and ride the bus without music...which is really hard for me for an inexplicable reason; so I just started yelling at him about how I do stuff for him all the time and it would be nice if he could have thought about me just enough to remember that small thing for me...
and he yelled at me for making a scene and then I just kinda huffed off and felt really bad all day.
But ya! Other than that, alot of stuff has been going on in my life, but again! all of it is a bit too private to post online >.< gomen ne! Where anyone could come along and just read away!
I brought a yaoi manga to school for one of my friends today; the first thing she did was look at the cover and say one of the characters was hot. I thought it was funny, because even though manga entertains me and I think the drawings are pretty and I can tell if a character is meant to be attractive, that's not how she meant it......I hope my manga is ok. I love sharing but whenever I part with one like that I feel like I'm dropping off my child at her friends house for a sleep over. -_____-.
I need hana-kimi 6 so bad, 5 ended with a mega-cliff-hanger and I have a violent need in my soul to know the part after this....AND ZOMG my interums were so good.Which is good, I've been trying so hard, even history, I'm getting the grade I need to pass for the year even with all I missed from my migranes. I'll get all my credits and wont have to re-take anything, and if I get my math pulled up just a few more points, and get math analysis done with next year I can have another free elective for my senior year. HAHAHA.
I cooked again the other night, I was craving mexican food so I found a good recipe in mom's cookbook for taco/hamburger casserole thingy and it turned out really well. It's almost gone now or I would put a picture up. OH! And I have this wonderful book I'm reading now, It's actually not that good and somethign sad just happened in the end of it TT__TT But I think I really like it because the main character is so strong and resolute. I always love reading characters with lots of selfconfidance that aren't bithces or whores...or that are but pull it off well...I don't know it's hard to decribe. Let's just say I like the streangth of her character....and I hope she ends up ok in the end of this book....urg, it's so suspenseful! Like a movie, I find myself wanting to yell into the page! " No, don't say that, you're making a mistake ".
I'm such a goon.
~ Aishiteru minna, Ja-ne.
PS: I'm so dissapointed in the hannibal rising movie for bieng all gore and no psychological element >.< hmph.
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| Kon ban wa!!! Aishiteru minna! I went to see blood & chocolate on friday as planned at it was pretty good apart from a few minor hiccups like it NOT FOLLOWING THE FSKING BOOK. I can't tell you how they screwed up without giving the movie away to people who might try to go see it but they didn't even attempt to follow the story line. URG. I think they made it better though, and if you completely detached movie from book in your head it becasme and interesting story, and the ending was infinatly more preferable <3. Bad casting though ( undebatable ).
It actually ended up just bieng me and Crim for the movie because Chantharavongsa never showed, it wasn't her fault though .:: huggs portable saera-chan plushie ::. and I forgive her easily because she is so kawaii =3 . So afterwards we went out to din din at a steak house and ate yummies...well, I didn't eat much because I'm on that wacko diet that I HATE but I love the fruits of...so I went to a steak house and ordered/looked at yummies. I swear, my father has the mental maturity of an 18 year old, it was seriously like having dinner with 2 people around my age; I still can't wait until I can drive myself places though, freedom will taste much sweeter than the steak he can afford for us.
Saturday I woke up early and studied for most of the day until Crim was supposed to get me to go to the mall, but that ended up falling through because her parents got busy ( again parents, they rule our lives ) so we're going on sunday, but instead we waiting until her mom got back from work and she came over and we watched jackass number 2. Then we really were at a loss of what to do so we had dad take us out to the store picked up some exotic cooking engrediants. With these...and hours of elbow grease.. we managed to give birth to the fantasmical bodies of these two cakes.
That's called a Cherrie Lane Chip Cake <3 it tastes like sex.
(( Oh crap well, I can't get the other one to work right now ^-^;;; the picture I mean. so um I'll put it up later. But it's sunday and crim's mom is comming to take us to the mall so I gotta go. I'll edit it in late. )
Sayonara.
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| Good Evening everyone!...I know noone reads this yet but I still feel kinda obligated to begin that way...anyways..on with my day...
.::sighs::.
Anyways I finally got to stay after school and pick up some of that work I desperatly needed and managed to get to work on it, but man this stuff is time consuming .___. my brain hurts and I've only finished like 3 parts of it.. Well, in all actuality it's not that difficult, most of it is just time sucking work to take up the block schedual we have at my school ( which personally I like, I dont know why everyone complains about it, it gives you more time with your friends, and more time for lunch ) <3 BLOCK SCHEDUALING ROCKS; but I do find myself hating it sometimes when I'm stuck in PE failing once again to hit the volleyball and glaring at the clock that refuses to admit that another minute has gone by. >.< grr, gdamn clock, always disobeying my will.
Well, that's all pretty bad but guess what comes out this friday, BLOOD AND CHOCOLATE!! I loved that book so much and now there's a movie made by the same people who made underworld and judging by the previews it looks fsking awesome!!! SUGOI, ne?! I've asked crim, gary and amanda to come with me; now the only one left to invite is chantharavongsa. ^-^ I don't know if any of them can come though except crim. Crim is my lover, my whore, my best friend; we're inseperable ( the only one of those I actually meant was best friend, the others were jokes for those of you who are breathsteakingly literal. ) One thing I think will really piss me off about this movie though is that it doesn't look as if it will follow the book at all , which is sad, I hate it when film companies kill good works of literature like that. But it can't be helped I guess they do what they can to make it sell T__T I thought it was fine how it was though.
Drew some more pictures today, guys, the first one wasn't that good but it was full body at lest and the legs are perdy shaped...he's kinda emo and guy eyes are hell to draw since they're so small; getting them symmetrical is near impossible. I tried and erased so many times the paper was about to break and then I gave up and gave him emo hair so I only had to bother with one eye. My second guy though was better cuz crim was there to back me up and give me drawing suggestions, she is such a good artist; my streangth, my boat. She inspires my to be better than I am, even though the only reason I'm drawing guys is someone else entirely...but shhhhh don't tell her, it's a secret. ^-^;;; But ya, I finished that one as just a torso and hips drawing and it turned out much better, with a much more styled look, not to mention the added bonus that I put him in a Dashboard Confessional T-shit. Just because I was listening to the song hands down and had a sudden surge of love so....it had to be done.
Anyways, I think i've said enough for now. There's actually surprisingly alot more to say but it's all too personal for something posted on the internet. GAH. So for now.
oyasumi. minna.
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Yo! I don't really know the reason much for writing this except to blog, but there isn't much else to do and it was suggested at school that I should try this out so I though, you know; why not ^-^;;;. Truth be told I had an xanga a long time ago, but when I tried to reactivate ( or just start using it again with a new picture. ) I noticed how lame and beyond salvation it truly was. So here this is, my new and improved xanga with no friends, no blog rings and now style...and with me remembering how to do absolutely nothing.... Including blog with a hook. I used to, even though I was young and whiney, at lest be able to blog long and about interesting topic but now .::sigh ::. I can't even get this off the ground. It's not like anyone is gonna read this thing anyways, but maybe they will. Infact I'm going to read a random persons blog. I'm going to find a blog ring that interests me and find an interesting person in there that blogs alot; and then just read EVERYTHING that they blog. It could be an interesting little project. Then after a few months I will get the feel of their life and it will be like I know them...
zomg I am such a stalker....AND ALL I CAN THINK WHILE I AM WRITING THIS IS GOD I AM SO COLD!!
I have a mile-long driveway and I had to just walk it in the snowy cold weather in a top that reveals half my cleavage which ( while it is nice to wear in school ) is not so friendly with borderline freezing temperatures. Not that I have much cleavage anyways. All because my math teacher, for ADV algebra II decided he was too high and mighty to stay after school today for tutoring AGAIN. So noone was here to pick me up, spledid huh?
I know I whine, but I'm not happy, you wouldn't be either. >____<
Anyways, on a brighter note of sunshine, I drew today, I may scan some of my drawings once I get some readers and some free time to turn them into line-art in photoshop ( or maybe some CG skills. ) And I have coffee, coffee is God; or jesus, because You know; it says I'm God on the popup. teehee. AND NOW FOR THE GOOD PART. Since this is the journal I'm supposed to tell it secret things, but since it's online and open to the public that's kinda contradictory since it's also full of things I don't want people to know. So lets fill it with things that are good but that I don't go around telling. Or...not fill it because I don't always have alot of those, but I'll tell a few now. Um, I love patters, cherries most, because in japan that's slang for virgin and that means it's kinda cute; I also like stacked hearts. <3 and that online sign. TWO WEEKS AGO, I was up to 163lbs and now with a diet and exercise that I finally decided to start, I am down to 140, which is a dramatic differance. and you know what?
NOONE NOTICED!
Not even my best friend, who btw, is acting wierd lately. She's bieng a total asshole. She's mean about everything and she will barely talk to me; not to mention the medicine that I've been taking for my migranes is making me forgetful and my personality is dull so there isn't much I can do about it. We've been friends for so long and inseperable I'm very worried.
.:: puts on an over dramatic " romeo and juliet voice " ::. Oh! Diary! I don't know what to do! .:: snicker ::.
HAHA, jk.
Anyways, fun talking to you. I think I have officially burned enough of my life away blogging for today.
My future blogs should be more extensive since I should maybe have actually done SOMETHING in those days...but maybe not..or I might introduce you to my classes if I have readers or something.
See you tommorow.
Ja ne.
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